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Looking forward to be able to communicate with you all โค๏ธ

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Shopping! I’m a SuperWoman โญ

Maybe not a haul now but yes I actually did some shopping today. Don’t ask me how I managed to get all the stuff back home from the town by stroller and bus but I did ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป SuperWoman!

Not the most fun shopping but very necessary! I actually spent 1000SEK which is pretty juicy but it’s fine. I managed to score some good deals ๐Ÿ’ช๐Ÿป so with me home I had 20 packages of baby whipes. 11 bottles of detergent, 6 packs of laundry thingy, 3 packages of diapers, one big box contained 4 packages of formulas.. And two bag a of cheese doodles.. Now don’t ask me how I did get it home but trust me.. I did get a lot of looks by people but I don’t care.

At the end when Emilio and I were gonna go home, we stood and waited on the bus. Emilio became cranky and all that fuss so he started to cry and scream. He wanted to cuddle with my jacket ~ my baby โค๏ธ so I gave him my jacket. Note that it was freezing cold outside but luckily I had the blanket my mom made for Emilio when he was a baby and before she passed away. Sure I got looks when I stood there waiting on the bus as well but I didn’t care at all. As long as Emilio was warm I didn’t mind.

So this has been my day. Shopping and freezing. Tomorrow it’s work day! Which means I have to get up super early ๐Ÿ˜ญ

Goodnight โญ


Mamas little helper ๐Ÿฅฐ

Today it says laundry on the schedule. Which is so needed. To be honest, I have laundry maybe two times a week but my Hooligan always makes sure I have to do it an extra time. Lol!

What are you up to? Laundry and cleaning here ๐Ÿ™‹๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ Saturday fun. Later tonight I’m gonna have a massive spa night ~ luxuriously for me. Lol!


Work, tired but happy

Hello my beautiful sunflowers ๐ŸŒป

I hope you all have / had an amazing day! I can honestly say, my day was good even though with lack of sleep. Been to work ~ ah! I love that work. Really! I work as a “take care” person at a senior home. I don’t really know what it calls but simple : I work at a senior home. The elderly people are so much fun! I feel… That I belong there!

Lacking sleep lately ~ alright. Hands down. This mama is tired! Mio has started to wake up every night now and the night to today he didn’t sleep at all.. Not the whole night. I tried E v e r y t h i n g but did he fall asleep? No ๐Ÿ˜‘๐Ÿ˜• yeah at 6am! That stress after I have woke him up! Omg!

Meeting with the boss today. Omg I was nervous. I won’t talk so much about the meeting other than I really hope this will happen ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿป crossing my fingers.

Pain everywhere. OK, lately I have had some pain in my hips and back. I do not know why and when I’m at work it’s horrible but I’m not stopping myself.. Which is good but on the same time it’s bad because now I am in bed (for the night) and can barely move ๐Ÿ˜‚ I mean, come on!!

I’m gonna try to update more often but I won’t promise that I’ll be able to do posts everyday. I’m gonna try.

Short and weird post. I had a good post on my mind to blog here but I’m so tired I almost falls asleep so I forgot it. Typical me. Anyway, I’m off to sleep! Goodnight sunflowers ๐ŸŒป๐Ÿ’›


2019 / 2020

Happy New Years! I hope you all are having an amazing celebration!

I have been thinking lately, a lot of what happened this year to me. What’s been good and what’s been bad. Plus and minus. Yay and nay. And to be honest, it’s mostly bad / minus/nay this year but there is a few good/plus/yay as well. So just to keep as a memory I wanted to share the list here. So here we go

โ€ข new job
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป i got a new job in February as a personal assistant
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป lost it because of false accusations

โ€ข vacation
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป family time with my little family ~ Emilio and M โค๏ธ
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Met Emma and her son Viggo when we were on our vacation! Finally โ™ฅ๏ธ
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป One “hotel” we were staying at was horrible

โ€ข comfort zone
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป I managed to try different colors when it comes to makeup and cloths
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Still wear 99% black when it comes to clothes.

โ€ข makeup
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป I use to learn how to wear colorful makeup.
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Went outside with neon green, neon red and neon blue eyebrows and eyemakeup

โ€ข new job
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Senior home.
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Not a paid job

Other stuff
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Taking care of myself much more such as having spa nights etc
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Weight-loss (lost the weight I gained after mom’s death)
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Mama died
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Gained 15kg (lost them now)
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Still a smoker but ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป because it’s not as much as it used to be
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Separation.. No details.
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Christmas without mom and my other half
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Been more active on Instagram ~ @ justemmaz < follow โ™ฅ๏ธ
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Many tears has been falling this year
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Still a Coca Cola zero addict but ๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป because I’ve cut down sooo much. Still drinking to much but a lot less then before
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Managed to finally fix a new ID card with my second surname.
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Police ~ I have not been arrested or what so ever. I just can’t talk about it now
๐Ÿ‘Ž๐Ÿป Been to the court. Witness.
๐Ÿ‘๐Ÿป Eaten a bit better ~ more green.

Probably more has happened but I can’t really remember it all now. I have also been thinking about my goals etc for 2020 and to be honest, I’m not gonna have some goals because I don’t want to disappoint myself for not achieving them but I do have some “try to make it happen” etc and it’s just some simple stuff such as

โ€ข taking care of myself better.
โ€ข Take better care of my diabetes.
โ€ข Continue to work on to get out of my comfort zone.
โ€ข Work hard to reunite the family again.
โ€ข Continue to loose weight ~ not gonna have a number to reach but as long as I lose 1kg I’m happy.
โ€ข try to get a full time job
โ€ข save some money
โ€ข get at least one tattoo this year (planning)
โ€ข visit mom and dad’s grave a bit more
โ€ข declutter my home, stuff, life, myself and things
โ€ข break free ~ something I have to work hard on.
โ€ข cut back even more on smokes and zero
โ€ข more chicken and vegetables & fruits. Less bleehh
โ€ข set some simple goals I want to try for every month.
โ€ข travel.. Even if it is just over a day to an other location (not Sundsvall or so.. Somewhere else)
โ€ข start the B with my best friend.. Hopefully..

2020 is also a year of celebrations! Many birthdays and memorial days this year such as every year but just for fun:
โ€ข 2 ~ Sister in law’s birthday
โ€ข 12 ~ 3 year anniversary
โ€ข 19 ~ husband’s birthday
โ€ข 23 ~ brother in law’s birthday
โ€ข 2 ~ Uncle’s birthday
โ€ข 5 ~ Sister C’s birthday
โ€ข 10 ~ Sister M’s birthday
โ€ข 12 ~ Dad’s death day
โ€ข 28 ~ Brother’s birthday
โ€ข 9 ~ Niece A’s birthday
โ€ข 22 ~ Mom’s death day
โ€ข 7 ~ Niece O’s birthday
โ€ข 8 ~ Mom’s birthday
โ€ข 2 ~ Niece D’s birthday
โ€ข 30 ~ Sister A & B-i-L’s wedding day
โ€ข 31 ~ Sister A’s birthday
โ€ข 14 ~ Nephew G’s birthday
โ€ข 22 ~ Dad’s birthday
โ€ข 27 ~ my 30th birthday
โ€ข 31 ~ Nephew J’s birthday
โ€ข 2 ~ Emilio’s birthday


So that was a little bit. I’ll try become better at blogging as well! I truly miss blogging and I miss you guys! But lately my life has been so crazy! On one day it turned a 360. I have had barely any chance to just catch my breathe. It’s been meetings here and there. Every where and near. Ugh hopefully 2020 will be a lot calmer. Happy new year! Thank you everyone for this year and thank you all for the love you have given me. I love you all! โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ


One work week is over.

Wow. How depressing isn’t that? I started my work this Monday and tomorrow it’s the last “shift” of the week. I only work 3 times a week at the moment but still. It makes me sad.

This week I have:
โ€ข new job
โ€ข gotten a big ass infection in my piercing. After switching to nose pin which I removed and switched back to my ring.
โ€ข got engaged [lol. Not for real but it’s a funny story. I can’t tell it (don’t know if I’m allowed) but trust me it’s funny]
โ€ข had laundry twice this week.
โ€ข learned so many new things [at work]
โ€ข got a package I ordered ~ new shoes๐Ÿคฉ well… Not for personal / private use.. Work shoes but still!

Nothing special to be honest but some part has been gold โ˜บ๏ธโ˜บ๏ธ

I was supposed to blog today but I have had laundry literally all day today! I don’t know why but I decided to wash E v e r y t h i n g including stuff that was already washed ๐Ÿ˜‚ I don’t know why to be honest but hey, it’s me.

The alarm is going off at 5. 30am. Downside of having this job. I have to get up so freaking early. Drop Emilio of at the daycare, take the bus to work, work my hours, bus home, pick Emilio up, make dinner, bath him, get him ready to sleep and boom.. My turn to get ready to sleep.. That’s my new days 3 times a week. On the other two (week days) it’s either meetings, laundry or massive clean day. Sound fun eh? Let me tell you, it’s not. Lol!

Goodnight and sweet dreams! Well maybe it’s morning or so at you so good morning / evening to you ๐Ÿ˜Š

Me {photos}

Prove them wrong!

Such a crazy month! So stressful, so tempting to break down in tears. Hard work. New life and so on.

My loves. My little beautiful ghostly pumpkin flowers (yeah idk what i wrote there). I have been gone for tooooooo long now! It has been so crazy! I haven’t had a chance to sit down and relax.. At least that what it feels like. Crazy week before Christmas ~ before asking or so no I’m not celebrating Christmas this year. Not even when I have Emilio. It’s not a Xmas without my other half. So bye Christmas and I guess.. Hello Thai food? We don’t have Chinese food take away or Chinese food in general where I live but we do have Thai food!! Thank God!

One massive positive thing that is super exciting for me is that I have a new job (!!!!!!!) and I had my first official day on Dec 16th which means tomorrow I’m having my second day!

Yes I have managed to fix so I have work days 3 times a week when Mio has daycare. Hope you guys understood what I meant.

This fluffy marshmallow is now working at a senior home. I love it. I can not talk so much about it but for being there just one day I can honestly say that I love it… So far ๐Ÿ˜ who knows what the future will give me.

Other than that, I have been to shit loads of meetings. Many tears has fallen down my cheeks. Many laughter has been out through my mouth. Some mixed feelings. I just hope everything get a thousand times better next year.

Goodnight, alarm is set at 6am ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿง๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ


“There is nothing better than talk to you. It’s us against the world’

Hello hello hello my beautiful snowflakes! Ok that was weird but it’s ok. I’m weird so yay. Well anyway. How are you all? Ugh Emilio and I are sick. Yup. It has struck us again. Hit us in the face like a brickwall. Pretty annoying but as usual every year I get sick this time and also on Christmas ~ yay.

Love the quality.

A quick pop in here. I don’t really have anything today atm other than I’m sick.. Haha! Well hopefully everything will get back to normal soon. I miss blogging. I miss you guys!! But my life isn’t so interesting atm. ~ especially right now. Just trying to survive this cold with pain in the nose while Emilio is cranky and in a bad mood. Yay..

The pictures is taken from my kitchen window the other morning. I love sunrise with colors like this. And to be honest, I looove the quality of the pictures on WP (sarcasm / irony).

Headline: it’s from a song by a Swedish girl group I have stuck on my mind. The band is called PLAY and the song US against the world. They were the band playing in the Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen movie with Megan Fox ~ Holiday in the sun. Great movie โ„๏ธ it’s an old song and movie but still love them. I always play that song when I do dishes or so. Such a good song!